ANiS HaDi

I’m planning to learn how to bake, cook n design..I know, I do sound greedy but thats what I’m aiming for now, other than completing my ACCA..Yeah, I kinda left it for almost 3 years and I only have 6 years left to complete it..Hope I’ll be able to make it..

I’ve been watching a lot of Martha Stewart series and all those cooking n designing lessons on Channel 11 which made me realize how easy they seem to look..So, given the resources I have now, I’m planning to make full use of it..Its not that I dont know how to, I make chocolate cakes and cookies for Raya but I want to try baking those complicated ones like cheese cakes, pies and etc..But first of all, wanna learn how to make cheese cake, since I love them so much.. :)..Oh yeah, I promised to let Ayu taste my tiramisu..Hope I’d have the time to whip it up when she’s in town..Its not that hard n I dont actually need an oven..A fridge will do, hehe..

N cooking, not too proud to admit but I dont know how to cook dishes, haha..So again, given the resources now, planning to learn how to cook, not professionally tho, just a few dishes that I could serve for lunch and dinner..

Other than that, I’m into sewing beads and labucci’s..Tried a few on my clothes and tudung..Nothing much but seeing the end result just makes me so happy..Just excites me that I did it all by myself..Before this, I used to see my sister n mum do it but now when I have started it myself, its satisfying..It makes my mind occupied n distracts me from those unnnecessary thots that always makes me sad..Even now, whenever I see clothes that have beads and labucci’s on them, I try to memories the designs and see if I can put them on my own..I guess thats how people learn rite? It wont be perfect at first but later on, I’d get used to it..

I’m not going to rush myself into it altogether..Small steps..But these are the things that I’m planning to do..No more shopping coz in the end, they are just going to pile up and wont benefit me at all..So, I’m venturing myself into all these new things and hope it’ll ‘profit’ me one day..Wish me luck!!

My exams are finally over..Now waiting for the result but im pretty sure i wudnt pass..2 days before the exam, I was so sick that i didnt have the energy to study..I know, I know, Im not supposed to do last minute studying but with the workload, I wasnt able to concentrate much on my studies..Nyesal tak sudah tapi nak kata aper..Whats done is done..hehe..

Now even tho ive recovered from my sickness, I think becoz i was so weak when I was sick (didnt have the energy to eat the food i prepared, just slept and slept), Im currently experiencing my gastric problems..Its kinda painful at times and im lucky enuff i dont vomit most of the food I eat but if I dont eat at all, I’d be worst…So have to at least eat something, tho not much but just to make sure my stomach is not empty..

How I wish, I had that ’someone’ to care for me..Who actually bothered to ask me whether I needed anything, to tend to my every need..Depressing as it may sound but that’s how I feel..I dunno..I missing someone terribly..

Feeling extremely lonely, aching and hurting..

Have u guys watched this movies yet? Its hitting the cinema right now and I suggest u watch it..Maybe it doesnt fit ur type of movie preference but i think its worth watching, seriously..Featuring Will Smith and his son..The first time I saw the preview at Star World, I was attracted to it..I didnt recognise that he was Will Smith coz he had this big afro wig on..When they mentioned it was him, then I realised…Cant tell u how it goes yet as I haven’t seen the whole movie but will do if I catch it this weekend (If time permits)..Will most probably be going with my other siblings..hehe..B4 this we planned to watch Puaka Tebing Biru together but due to my Korean Series Marathon, had to postponed the plan..Finally, went and watch PTB with my sister, which turned out to be - So, So..Plus, had to bear the foolishness of two stupid monkeys who didnt have the decency to respect other people..We paid for the movie too, so they should have shut their **** mouth….They were bz critisizing, complaining and making funny  remarks (which wasnt funny at all) of the script..As if other people were bothered to listen..How I wish I could slap them..hehe..I was having a hard time listening to the conversation in the movie..Arrgghhh..Hope this incident wont happen when I watch TPOF coz I need full concentration when I watch this movie, hehe..As always, when Im watching something, dont bother talking to me coz I most probably wont reply, haha..

School hols are coming soon..My parents are going for a business trip cum vacation (my mum) to Beijing, only the two of them for one whole week..My dad wanted to bring along my youngest sister but I didnt think it was appropriate since she’ll be sitting for her PMR this year..Have to study from now since she’s been slacking a lot for the past two years..We’re all counting on her to maintain the standard, hehe..The worst is 6A’s..Hope she can make it..Kids nowadays dont take things seriously..They just like to play around..Surfing the web, chatting, dressing up, gossiping, flirting with bf’s/gf’s..They sure are spoiled little brats..

K, will write again next time..Have to study for my revision class n mock exam next week..Oh yeah, for my CCP exam in early April..Praying that I’ll pass..Amin..

~Cheerio~

Its been a very2 long time since my last post..As I said, had the pleasure of pouring out my thots elsewhere..But then again, havent been writing in there much too..

Long CNY weekend..Im sure lots of ppl went back to their hometown for CNY..But for my family, we stayed in KL since my dad had to fly off to Dubai with his colleague to visit a site there and also Tehran..Hmm, I’ve never been to Dubai before..Maybe the airport when I did my Umrah, way back when I was in Form 2..But not Dubai..Have to visit there someday..Saw a few interesting spots in Amazing Race Asia and also in a Philippine movie: Dubai..Looks exciting but of course, exploring new things are always exciting..Dont u think?hehe..

Didnt do much during the long holidays..Just stayed at home, went grocery shopping with my mum and tok for my auntie’s stall..Oh yeah, free advert here..If anyone of u feel like eating Nasi Tomato (My Tok’s specialty), Nasi Ayam, Laksa Johor or  Soto, feel free to visit my auntie’s stall in Taman Melawati opposite Giant, near a post office and also a stall at a corner lot restaurant in Taman Melawati too..I know, its kinda hard to find but if u really want to taste my tok’s cooking, just tell me, I’ll make time for u guys..hehe..Coz I for one could never resist my tok’s ayam masak merah..Nyum2!!

Another activity during CNY was a visit to Danau Kota Midnite Stall..Went there to buy plants that is my current interest..Lucky Bamboo..I went there a month before and was so fascinated by the colour..What I meant by colour is the Jelly..So cute..U can see the pics in my profile..Some I bought for friends, while some, my own..They look so lovely..Feel like not selling them but then again, I promised to buy them for my friends, so have to keep my word, rite?

Haha, another thing I did during the holidays, Korean TV series marathon..This time, hehe, wif my mum..We watched "Memories of Bali"..OMG, its so sad..In the end, all three died..How I wish, someone as good looking as "Zheng Zai Min (character in the series)" and kinda cute would fall head over heals for me..hehe..Yeah, u wish Anis..He was so in love with the heroin that anything she did, did not affect how he felt for her at all..Even tho, she didnt love him, he still loved her so dearly and would do anything for her..One day not seeing her, he’d go crazy..But i guess, in this world, sometimes, u will never have everything u want..Sacrifices were made and it’s all for the best..No matter how much u’ve done, sometimes, it’s still just not enough..

Ok, I guess thats all for now..Will write again next time, when I feel like it..Nothing planned yet for this weekend..Hope I’ll be doing something interesting..Hehe, will see..

~Cheerio~

Its been a long time since I last wrote in this blog..Have been in the pleasure of spilling my thots out in some other place, hehe..And really enjoying it..

However, felt like posting this in my own blog..I think i saw this post before in Safwan’s blog..But its ok..I really love what Oprah had to say about men..Some of it does relate to whats happening in my life and some dont..Its just something to ponder on..

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesnt want you, nothing can make him stay away. Stop making excuses for a man and his behaviour. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save your from heartache.

Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that’s not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve, then heck no, you can’t "be friends". A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend. Don’t settle.

If you feel like he is stringing you along, the he probably is. Don’t stay because you think "it will get better". You’ll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Avoid men who’ve got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didnt marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you differently?

Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers u, speak up.

Never let a man know everything. *Big mistake - He will use it against you later.

You cannot change a man’s behaviour. *Change comes from within.

Dont EVER make him feel more important than you are..even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing lee. Never let a man define who you are. Never borrow someone else’s man. If he cheated with you, he’ll cheated on you. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

All men are not dogs.

You should not be the one doing all the bending..compromise is two way street.

You need time to heal between relationships..there’s nothing cute about baggage..deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.

You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you..a relationship consist of two WHOLE individuals..look for someone complimentary..not supplementary.

Dating is fun..even if he doesnt turn out to be Mr. Right.

Make him miss you sometimes..when a man always know where you are, and you’re always readily available to him - he takes it for granted.

Never move into his mother’s house. Never co-sign for a man.

Dont fully commit to a man who doesnt give you everything that you need. * Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.

You should know that you’re the best thing that could ever happen to anyone and if a man mistreats you, he’ll miss out on a good thing. If he was attracted to you in the first place, just know that he’s not the only one. They are all watching you, so you have a lot of choices. Make the right one.

Its been quite sometime since I last wrote in this blog..

Havent got the time, with reviews to finish by October for my appraisal (as if I care, I dunt think I’ll even be here when they give it out, hehe), puasa month and I have been too tired to jot down anything (plus, puasa month, we get to go back early, and normally I’d rushed back early to avoid breaking fast in my car)..

What made me write TODAY? Have u guys seen the petronas ad bout an old man whom was mistreated by his daughter and son-in-law..I got to see it yesterday, rite after Seputih Qaseh Ramadhan (another sad telemovie, such a stupid husband, pardon my language but he really is a coward)..The ad attracted me to the extent that it even made me cry..

Telling u how it goes, wudnt touch ur heart as seeing it for urself..U can view the adv at this link:

http://202.71.107.161/petronas/bm/tvc2.asp

U’ll understand what I meant..So touching..Hope that I wont do the same thing to my parents, Nauzubillah..

Akak sayang Mak & Ti..

Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan karena
Cinta yang tlah hilang
Darimu yang mampu menyanjungku

Chorus:
Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau
Kenangan yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang tlah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

This song kinda expresses how I feel at this point of time..Encountered sumthg ystrday and it shud be sumthg i shudnt be bothered abt but it seems to have made me cry during my journey back home after work..

No matter how hard I try to hate and forget, even tho i’ve been cheated in all sorts of ways so many times, it seems to be very hard for me to resist it..

Like what a dearest friend of mine said, probably what I’m feeling right now is loneliness..I guess what I’m feeling now is all the memories of us together, wishing that it would go on forever…Good or bad…I just have to be grateful that I did experience the greatness of love and I hope it doesnt end there..Hope that one day, my knight in shining armour will come and sweep me off my feet and make me the happiest girl alive..InsyaAllah..Amin..

Just had my lunch in front of my pc, hehe..My lunch routine, only go out for lunch if necessary like a big sale or something, or else, just have my lunch in front of my pc..Yesterday, while I was about to doze off for the nite, a movie on Channel 43 Astro caught my attention..Love:Impossible..At first, the title itself caught my attention, and then as I was figuring out what the story was about..I cudnt help myself from enjoying it till the end..

To me it was a sweet and touching love story bout two students, one from South Korea and another one from North Korea, who was brought together by fate for an archeologian dig in China..At first it was funny how the guy who was a casanova back in his town, tried to tackle the girl who was brought up in a completely different culture, military background..A few funny scenes where the girl kinda rejects the guys peace offerings but in the end, they fell in love..But due to their different cultures, problems arise..Can the love they share overcome these differences?

If u wanna know how it ends, shud catch it at Channel 43..I cried a bit, haha, but thats me, i’m so full of tears, especially when it comes to love stories..Reflecting back all the things I’ve gone thru and wish it never had to end..But then again, like the advises I’ve been receiving from young and old, maybe there’s something better waiting for me out there..InsyaAllah..

A lot has happened for the past 3 days..And today my body finally got a chance to relax..Let me tell u one by one, the days I’ve gone thru..On Friday, my division had an annual dinner which was held at The Lodge in Jln Sultan Ismail..The theme was beach wear or Hawaiian..I didnt actually know how to dress up like I do when going to the beach coz what I wud normally wear is my track bottom and a shirt, hehe..So I just wore something I felt would be acceptable as a beach wear..The party started at 6.30pm, first with registration and at 7.00pm, the real thing began..It was a shock coz the party started with a few ‘cik pon’ dancing the Hawaiian dance..My male colleague was so in awe looking at them and when it was nearly to an end, I informed him that they were actually ‘pondan’, he was extra shocked..haha..He didnt suspected it at all..Probably I shud have told him bout it at the end of the party but then again, didnt want to mislead him into believing that they were actually ladies..After the hawaiian dance, they came out again, this time doing what they call it as china doll dance..wuteva..They were all dressed so sexy and everything looked so real..But a lady knows another lady too well..haha..Dinner was served around 7.30pm, just in time for me to break fast..The food was delicious..We didnt know the price of the food but it was actually delicious..The place is also cozy enough for any of u who are interested to bring ur love ones..The decorations were simple but nice..While having our dinner we were entertained by songs played on the piano by a collegaue from trade dept and after dinner, they started off with the games..The games were quite interesting and everyone was cooperative enough to take part in them..I managed to get two tickets to the Cosmo Theme park..The tickets are valid till the end of this year and maybe I’d drop by it sometime..In all, the annual was a success and the committee in charge of it did really well in ensuring that the annual dinner for the corporate banking division was a success..

Saturday, one of my close friends finally got married..Nikah was done in the morning while in the evening, she had a wedding reception..There was also another wedding reception in Cyberview Lodge which I was also invited, however, since I had to go for my interview today, had to pass out on one of her special event…Thankfully, she understood that my interview today determines my future and she didnt want herself to be the reason for me not pursuing my dreams..She looked really gorgeous in her wedding dress and was really happy when she finally heard the Tok Iman announcing that she was married..Congratulations Normy & Konti, May both of u live happily ever after till the rest of your life and may both of you be blessed with good fortune for u to continue your own generation..

Well finally it comes down to my interview today..I was so nervous when I reached the interview location and in order to calm myself down, I went to talk to the other interviewees..They have actually divided us into two session..5 each where first session started at 8.00am while the second session started at 10.30am..The interview process started with an essay writing for about 30mins and after that, there was a discussion amongst the 5 candidates on a topic..Basically, they wanted to see how we interact with each other and whether we were able to talk in English and voice out our opinions..After 45 mins of the discussion session, we went out and were called in one by one for the individual interview..Since I was the youngest amongst them all (eventho everyone was born in 1979), I was the last in the list..Finally when it was my time, the interviewer asked me a few question about my current job and why I opted to become a teacher..I explained, bla, bla, bla and after the end of the session, I was commented that I smiled the whole time during the interview session and I actually suited the job I’m doing now..I just smiled as I already mentioned to them that I want to explore new challenges and see whether I’m tough enough to undertake them..I dont know whether the interviewer was praising me or whether he was condemning me but I take what he said as a compliment..Senyum itu satu sedekah..Thats all for now..Will be uploading my pics soon , so guys dont forget to give my yahoo photo’s a visit..Till then, Adios…

Last Saturday nite I went to watch Puetri Gunung Ledang at Istana Budaya with two of my girl friends..Girls Nite Out I mite say..My sister didnt join in the fun coz she already got to watch it twice..First with my uncle, his treat and second a free ticket from her friends and blimey me, it was worth it..She got to watch it at the RM150 seat I think..As for me, only watch it at the RM30 seat coz my friends had bought the tickets earlier so since I was gonna sit with them, I bought the RM30 seat..

Even tho it was quite far, like two levels up, but still it was worth it..I would rate the play 8/10..Tiara’s voice was good for a not so professional singer..Even tho I’m not a big fan of her but she did perform her role well..Despite the complaints I’ve been hearing from people that her singing wasnt that good, but I thot that nite she did well..Loud and clear..Pitching was good..hehe..Now I’m becoming an AF commentator, haha..But seriously, she did good..I applaud her for that..

While my comments for my sole purpose to watch PGL, Stephen Hughes Rahman..He was superb..He’s voice and singing, well done..Tho there were few times when I caught him sounding a bit funny (coz he cant pronounce the S word correctly), I forgive him for his good looks..Wow, he’s the type of guy every woman dreams about, the good looks, tall and masculine, OMG, so drop dead gorgeous..But yeah, every woman knows, only the lucky ‘ONE’ will succeed, haha..But then again, it was worth hearing his voice..I think, without the mike attached to him, I could still hear his voice, two levels up..Powerful..

So guys, if u havent got the chance to catch PGL, better buy ur tickets soon as its gonna end this 19th of August..PGL is about true love that didnt have a happy ending..And the songs on the other hand wasnt disappointing at all..They were all so lovely and poetic..Relaxing to the ears..Brings back memories….Thot of buying the CD but it was so expensive..RM35..haha..Will find other alternatives to listen to the song..Till I write again..Doing another interesting thing, I hope..

"Sometimes it feels like, no matter how hard I try to enjoy myself, it still isnt enuff… … Allah give me strength for I am very weak in the matters of the heart…"