~SaD~
It’s 4 o’clock in the morning..Now I’m in Kuantan for the long holidays..Cudn’t actually sleep until I blog down this thing that keeps bugging my head..
Was on my way back from KL with my parents and the songs playing in the radio were all so ’sayu aje kedengarannya’..Probably I’m feeling vulnerable rite now..Dont know why but the more it is nearing 5th May, the more sad I become..Why 5th May, only a few ppl know..But the problem is in my heart I actually dont know whether I want 5th May to come, or I want time to move so slow that it would take longer for 5th May to arrive..
Have u ever had that feeling where u seem to look so happy with the life ur leading, so content in what ur doing but deep down inside ur actually aching..Aching for something u know u really want so bad but u have no power to do anything about it or no control whatsoever over it..U can only let it be..Thats how I was feeling on my journey back home..Suddenly felt tears streaming down my cheeks..Remembering the happy days and how life seems to be going the way I wanted it to be..But now I realised that probably it was never meant to be and I was only given that period of time just to experience it, gain something from it and move on..Tho there may be times when I feel like crying my heart out but when I’m done, I can put things behind me and go on..Dont know how long this process would go on (probably it mite not stop) but each time its over, i just keep my chin up high, act as if my life is so perfect and show the world how happy I am..
Life can be so unfair but if people always get what they want, they wont know the pain and pleasures life has to offer…So what I can do now is to be patient, lead my life as it goes by and pray that Allah gives me what He feels is best for me..
Ya Allah, Kau buatlah yang terbaik untukku..
