~THe DReaDeD Q~
Yesterday (21-05-06), there was an event at my uncle’s house..My cousin was having a ‘cukur jambul’ ceremony for her son..At the beginning, everything was going on fine..Was so happily taking pictures with my siblings, mother, cousins and most importantly the highlight of the event, the baby himself..Then, while we were eating, I heard this Q being addressed to me, which I have been dreading to hear whenever there was any ceremonies in the family..So, as always, my answer would be the sweetest smile that I can give..
Then again, when it was time to go back, the topic came up again, while ber’salam’2 with the elders..And like my previous reply, I could only answer with a smile..Only close relatives know what Q has been pressuring me all these while..Really cant do anything about it..The blame is only on my shoulders..How hard I push it, if it was never meant to be, nothing would happen..I’m accepting it now..I’m really trying my best to forgive and forget..Hope it would be a lifetime lesson for me..Should never disobey ur elders..What I can do now is go on with my life and my only prayers is that may Allah does what He feels best for me and prepare me for it coz He knows better..
