~A NeW Me~
Encountered something that shud not have been a shock to me, something I predicted would happen one day and finally, it did today..Somehow, it still made my heart ache so bad..While confiding to my sister bout it, suddenly tears came streaming down my cheek..How can I be so weak when it comes to this..I shud be strong, there’s nothing I could have done to change what had happened..I tried my best to work things out in hopes that it would be better but seems that there’s no turning back..Nothing I do could change anything..
Luckily I got my sister, my family, my good friend Mal and my friends to support me all the way…I dont blame anyone totally for what had happened, I know it was partly my fault…I tried my best but I guess my best wasnt enuff…Probably it was never meant to be..I dont regret everything that had happened, all the sweet memories..I do cherish them all, what I regret the most is what it had made me become..If I was ever to live it again, I mite do certain things differently but it did really teach me a lot…Now I have to start all over again, finding ways for things to be possible, regaining what I have left behind..Its hard but I’m hoping people I meet along the way, the ones I currently have and the ones I left behind wont judge me differently and accept the new me, a soul finding a new path in which, it wishes to lead…InsyaAllah..
June 19th, 2006 at 4:08 am
Anis….
Be strong gal…i think we’ve been through the same thing. It’s hard to let go of our past esp when the past is something that we hope can be our future. Let it go although it aches so much and u think it is the end of the world. Life is hard no one can argue that. As u said, its a new u..and u will be suprise where the new u will lead. U’ll meet new people, new circumstances, new adventure…maybe it will ‘fail’ or maybe it will be the ‘future’ but….it’s life, we can’t fight anything about that. God is great, and whatever happens its for the best…Although we are not that close but i know u r a strong women… Take Care……
June 19th, 2006 at 8:41 am
Have faith that you’re strong and that you’ll get through this rough time. i pray Allah will send u peace in this difficult time.
June 19th, 2006 at 7:49 pm
Anis dearie…
u always there 2 console me & ur words, keeps me going & stays strong…
PLEASE… don’t let down & be strong no matter what..
“ALLAH hanya menduga umat yang dia tau boleh menanggungnya…”
take care always and i’m just nearby… u know where to get me…
*hugs*
June 19th, 2006 at 9:50 pm
What ever happened, be strong…
There’s always a good reason for ’something’ happened to us, BUT only Allah knows it all..
June 20th, 2006 at 12:49 am
Thanks guys..
Really appreciate ur concern..
Ur support means a lot to me..
I know I always have good friends that I can count on for help..
Even tho its hard but I’ll try my best to go thru it..Turning a new leaf and hope things go well for me..
Gals, ur the best..